I got off on the wrong foot here in december.  I had two old profiles, posted from each and couldn’t figure out what was going on, tried to delete one of the postings and couldn’t figure it out… and then got all non-responsive on both of them.

Social interaction, even online, isn’t exactly my strong suit; but part of the problem is that i wasn’t really ‘trying’.  Or, i was doing what i thought was best, but in retrospect what i thought was best looks lazy and inconsiderate and self-centered.

To get all philosophical about it, i’d say i ‘could’ have done better—by which i think i mean two things:  1) If i were a deeply better person, i would’ve done better, so go ahead and blame me, right to the core.  2) If i’d had different valuation of the situation, i’d've done better; so i’ll blame and disempower the neural circuts responsible, and try to credit and empower other circuts.

Of course, we’ll just see how that goes…

But we’re supposed to kick off a topic AND introduce ourselves here?  I’m lousy at multi-tasking.  And there’s already an awful lot of ‘I’ in this post… so, i live in whitefish, montana; a ski, tourist, and semi-artsy town.  I have a high rate of impulsivity and a high rate of what i’d call ‘willful’ self-control, which itself can run amok.