I’m crying again. I’m crying so often these days, seeing the past, and oftentimes never having realized it.
I mostly cry because of my parents, as I love them so much, and I know they love me, but my ideas have always destroyed everything. - Really? Not really. My ideas were simply rejected, without further consideration. Anything non-conservative does not have a voice, it must be subdued.
Fascism is the wrong word, as fascism reminds of Hitler and Hitler is despised, but the ideas of happiness are the same. Fascist ideas. A strong leader who keeps the world at peace and lets people live their dreams… within the network, of course.
Fascism is not a military idea, although only sustained by such a force; it is the dream of a happy, peaceful life, unencumbered by economic problems, the world outside the dream, or people who don’t wish to live it (as they are put to labor or worse).
Communism is similar. Many fascist ideas are taken from Communism. But Communism is an idea that is not based on leadership, but on equality. - Granted, it never worked so far. But it does work if everyone agrees. (See the Hutterites or monastic communites.) - And no! Fuck the so-called “communism” as it happened to this day. I won’t stand beside this nonsense.
But I know…. my communist, socialist ideas are not welcome in America. I like the American idea, but I despise its exploitative capitalism, taking advantage of the poor and making them poorer, while the rich become super-rich. - No, I’m not a communist, but I have very socialistic ideas, contrary to my libertarianism otherwise. - I do not believe in money-making, however silly that may seem. And no, if you make money and worked for it, no problem… but if you have money you owe it to help others. Why? Because you are freakin’ human. (And just for the record, I don’t need anyone’s money. I work and make my own living. Since I don’t have kids, however, I support Children International, for nearly 20 years now. Yes, I give my money away, to those who need it. And they do need it. I really don’t. - And to have “sons and daughters” like that, it makes you happy! It really does. Try it.)
A great movie you all might be interested in is “Examined Life”. It features Peter Singer and Slavoj Zizek among others. Very thoughtful and interesting. (If you don’t wanna buy it, I’ll send you my copy, under one condition, send it along… Grateful Dead mindset, you know.)
Well, my sobbing has stopped by now, but I really like to cry. Takes that Prussian impulse out of you.
Never mind, my brothers and sisters, gentlemen and gentler women (as Sparrow puts it)...
Peace & Love to all of you. Enjoy your weekend. Don’t freak, just take it easy. Smoke a joint and chill.