Thank you all for your replies!
Hello New Humanist:
Grief is the feeling of loss. Loss of mom, dad, grandparents, relatives, even self.
What you may find, like many others have, both those who believed their life would never die and those who believed it was “the end”, is that as many others die around you that you know and you have lived a full life, body changing in the natural aging process…you get used to the idea of dealth. I know this from seven years of full time work at a large hospice as director of spiritual care. Even letting go of the idea of god and eternal life, alone or together, is a loss. What you are feeling is grief plus genuine scientific questions that tend to complicate the process.
One sure way to handle it is this but it won’t work for everyone depending on your thought processes. Obviously you are open and skeptical. That works greatly to your advantage in life.
First there is no evidence of anyone to meet you after death either a superman/god, angels, dead loved ones, or others. Yet believing there just maybe…may somehow be something is not outrageous though just an open question.
Second, if you decide to leave this open for now, let evidence appear and then just go about the rest of your real life here and now.
If you close the door, then whatever evidence might appear will, but you still go about the rest of your real life, here and now and be filled with joy and harmony in yourself.
Focus on the four factors of your life: Your body and things you have, your relationships and people in love and community, your money and financial energy, and your feelings and positive cognitive beliefs of a flourishing life.
Spirituality without god is the best gift to give yourself and share with others.
You decided your purpose day by day and overall. No other can tell you, not even the god who, evidently, does not exist and will degrade and spiritually rape autonomy if he does.
You decide what things mean for you by your own intellect and knowledge base.
You decide on your positive, personal, and pervasive experiment.
I wish you a full sense of purpose, meaning, and hope to enjoy and share as you desire.